What Blogging is about for me

Every now and again I get engaged with by someone who asks me why I'm not like [insert name of blogger here] and blog every day. My response is usually that unlike [use name inserted earlier] I am someone who blogs when it feels right.

When I started I bumped into someone who was, at the time, one of the leading lights in the blogosphere and they were very kind about my scribbles. We got talking and as we entered into various topics of the the day I noticed that they would scribble bits of it into their little notebook for use on the the blog later. A year on we met again and as we talked the notebook appeared again and scribbles were made. The scribbler, noticing that I was looking at them scribble as we spoke told me of the curse that blogging can bring as the need for content now obviously drove them. 'I can't hold a conversation or hear things without feeling the need for notes so that I can use anything interesting later,' they confessed and followed that with. 'In fact the blog drives me rather than me driving it. I have become its slave!'

What was interesting was that a few months later they mentioned this on their blog as they announced their decision to disappear for a while - and since then have vanished from the blogosphere (under that alias at least) apparently for good.

My latest conversation ended up with the question, 'Why don't you publish every day?' something which brought the response that, 'As just a boring cleric, what would I'd write about?' That said, I do blog every day as I publish the daily office after I have done t myself to encourage those I do vocations work (and members of our church and others with whom I have relationships) to get into the habit of a daily discipline of prayer.*

But this blog exists for me to internally dialogue with meetings, issues and other things encountered during the course of my day. I am not too concerned with looking at the trending issue and writing on them to add my voice and (says he cynically) to attract an audience for the sake of having one. Those with whom I engage, read and, converse over the issues that come up (more often than not by means other than the comments, which is sad because most are clever and funny types who should be read!) and this is what this place is.

It is a glimpse inside the addled and confused brain of an almost average dog collar. I meet someone and discuss something and then come back and reflect (usually over a brew) on the whole shebang before rushing out to fill the buffer with more stuff from the next encounter.

What bores me is the fact that so many bloggers all comment on the same stuff, albeit with their own spin, and end up being a fairly second rate version of the daily papers or the religious press. What I want is to find real people with real views who excite, challenge and even cause concern and panic (a reason one friend reads the blog just for that!).

So there we are - what you get is often a splurge of the brain and five (sometimes ten) minutes of bashing the keyboard as I lay out my encounters, pacify my frustrations and tether my demons. It's rarely pretty, frequently weird but one hundred percent me.

you're never alone with a clone!

* What makes this fun was the person who asked what the point of my blog was because, 'All you do is post the daily office!' Their response when I pointed out that there was 'much more than that in my blog' was, 'Oh, I wouldn't know - I don't generally read it!' Always good to have the informed opinion innit? Of course, were my the daily office to be the only thing I put on the blog, were it to encourage people to have a solid prayer and Bible reading practice I would still consider it to be worthwhile.

A thorny issue: Paying your way!

Being totally honest is something I always regard as good and yet something that is rarely applauded! One of the issues where I often find this is regarding the expectations and the realities of a church (meaning a gathering of people who come to worship God in all that He is) 'paying its way!'

There are those who send me letters 'encouraging' to get the congregation to give more in the light of diminishing income and tough financial climates. This is often accompanied by offers of help, should I need it, to inform and encourage better giving.

When further letters of 'encouragement' came I found myself drawing this:

This upset some people because, as they rightly complained that, 'The diocese has to pay its bills and make ends meet!'

And this is, of course, true. Once the money runs out the lights go off and the churches become cold and doors are shut. This is a reality of life: Charity might begin at home but it doesn't extend to utilities and suppliers of stuff who need to be paid to pay their staff and buy in the stuff they sell and the like. It's simple grown up world stuff innit?

One notch down the diocesan food chain we find the churches and they need to pay too. So I wrote this and stuck it on the wall:

And some people were appalled that I could do such a thing because,they assumed, 'everything was free!'.
The idea was to get people to realise that it cost money to keep a little church like ours afloat and with around 20% of the congregation having an income, this is a challenge for us each and every year.

Then came down from high a memorable little motto from the grown ups in the diocese that upset some who come to church. It went like this:

'If you can't pay - you can't have!'

And people beat their breasts at the thought of no longer having a church in their own patches - after all they'd always had it! But some were resolute and maintained their position with a sad look on their faces.

Then came the complaints that we didn't charge people to use the building space. 'You're undercutting us!' complained one church and the moaned at me, 'How can we pay our way if you're charging less than us? What are we supposed to do?'

Others called me foolish and yet the same people were the first to tell us how lucky we were when those who weren't paying offered us new seating and tables and helped put in central heating and the like. 'Cast you bread upon the waters ...' says the KJV - and we did and God proved Himself to be no man's debtor - and those outside complained at that!

I got into an argument because I thought that having taken money to do a wedding or funeral in a building that any subsequent offering or giving was something to be grateful for and applauded rather than become something to be complained about because it was too little.

Then I got into another argument because I made the point that when we started a church plant or a 'fresh expression' it would be good if we worked out how long we would be fully funded and then decide how the responsibility for 'paying our way' could become ours fully. Wow! This was a real red rag (as was suggesting perhaps that it was acceptable to church to ask people to pay for messy church'). People asked whether we asked those who came to other services to pay - and of course we do, what are our tithes, gifts and offerings if they are the people paying money to ensure that the church (local) pays it's way?

Bringing all of our tithes and offerings into the storehouse ensure the bills are paid and means that those with needs in the fellowship (and let's not fight over what that means for now because I have more weird ideas here too)  go without.

So perhaps we should charge for admission?

Hmmm - discuss :-)